UPDATE!

Hillo,

So... Long time no write. While I've been gone I've:

Been to Tunisia,

Rode a camel,

Moved up to year 8,

Lost ALOT of weight,

Had a new hairstyle put in

And mainly looked after my nan. But, other than that I've played music, listened to it and performed it to my family whilst on holiday (20 of my family members went on holiday but thats only from one side). I got dared by my lovely sister too do it, so I bit the bullet and jumped in the deep end. I sang How Will I Know by Whitney Houston, it wasn't my best but then again there was a rather large audience.

But that's not what I've planned to tell you. As you may know from previous blogs, my nan isn't very well. And she's been herself recently, clearing not walking yet but she's getting there. However, the other night my sister had sea cadets, so me and my dad took her, then we were gonna go see nan; as we do every night. She was rather chirpy, she looked perfectly fine, my auntie had gone upstairs to do the laundry and my dad was outside having a cigarette with my grandad. Until I noticed my nan twitching her head... 

"Nanny are you ok?" I asked,

"Yes baby" , she replied with tears rolling down her cheeks, holding her head.

"Nanny tell me whats wrong!?" I started to panic, so I ran to the bathroom and grabbed as many flannels as I could and started wetting them with cold water. I placed them on her head,

"Meggy don't worry about me I'm fine-" 

"No nanny your not, why are you crying?".

At this point my dad, auntie, and grandad had all ran in.

I remember my nan saying 'don't let them take me'. I just wanted to cradle her in my arms. My auntie called the paramedics, they were there an hour, in the end they gave her some tablets that were so strong they put her to sleep. 

A few days later, I hadn't been able to see her because I was at school and had homework, plus I was

super tired. But, my nan called my mum saying

"Can you tell megs to FaceTime me...I have something important to tell her". So, I did as she asked "Moogy! (She's always called me moogy since I was little) guess who's been to see me today?" 

"I've not a clue nana"

"God."

"But nanny you don't believe in god?" 

"I know, but he's been to see me. He told me I was the luckiest person he's seen all day. And he said I have a guardian angel. And guess who that is?"

I don't know nanny, Auntie Tracy?"

"Nope. You."

The Fault In Our Stars

Hillo,
So, ever since The Fault In Our Stars book came out by John Green, I have fell deeply in love with it and longed for the film to come out. I've had from countdowns to pre-booked tickets, it's been crazy but I have just loved it. And I've never felt like this before over a film.

I went to see the movie with my friend Shannon, and honestly it really opened my eyes. I don't want to ruin it for those who haven't seen it yet, but I highly recommend it. Hazel Grace, also know as Just Hazel is suffering from lung cancer, she goes to support group to encourage her but... Nothing really helps her. Until she bumps into the dreamy Augustus Waters, Augustus has suffered it already but has a deep, dark secret he's hiding from Hazel.

Now, personally Augustus reminds me of one of my friends from primary/secondary school, Lewis, but the thing is we never used to talk at primary. However, now everything has changed, we've opened up to each other and we are closer than best friends (we aren't dating! We are just good friends!). Lewis and Augustus , to me, are very alike because they are both quite cocky, confident, good-looking and mainly caring.

I'm going to be honest I did cry 7 times but it was worth it, after all the months of dedication to this movie ,it was all over in a flutter of an eyelash. I do want to see this movie again and it 100% certain ill purchase the movie, but it made me think about where I am now and where I need to go in life. I know, your probably thinking ' how can a movie make you realize that?'. Truth is I don't know, but I thank it. Please if you have the time go watch this movie, you won't regret it! That's all for this week, BAI!

This weeks song is... All Of The Stars by Ed Sheeran, I thought this was perfect considering I love Ed Sheeran and this weeks theme is The Fault In Our Stars.

NO... IM HERE!

Hillo,
Before I get started on my real blog, I just wanted to update you. So, as you are aware, my nan isn't to great, but yesterday I got told some more news about her. She had a scan on her brain, and they think the cancer on her lungs have gone, but have moved to her brain instead. There is a possibility she has brain cancer, but they are only using the treatment to cure it, before they make it official. Sorry that I'm writing sad blogs, but that's whats happening in my life right now!

Right! Now for 'real' blog! So as you've heard of my best friend Nicole, we have a decking in the middle of the school and we always spend are breaks in there now. But yesterday, I 'thought' I saw Nicole, but she had her hair all crazy to discise herself from me! So I ran all sneaky up to 'her' and hugged 'her'. When I realized it was some crazy year seven that I've never met! But, the worst bit was Nicole was right behind me watching the whole thing, with her normal hair. She couldn't breath. But megija (the girl I hugged) just looked at me so confused, so I couldn't help but burst out laughing!

For the rest of the week, whenever I was with Nicole and we passed megija, Nicole would burst out laughing! I kept telling her It's not funny, but she took no for answer. However, Nicole did have her own little mistake... She thought she was cool walking backwards and talking to me. When she tripped over and landing on a teacher! The whole class saw her as we had all had come out of class! It was hilarious! So that's it for this week, BAI!





This weeks song is... People Help The People by Birdy, it's a oldie but I still love it!

YOUR SO WEIRD, THATS WHY I LOVE YOU!

Hillo,

Long time no write, I'm extremely sorry, like I can't explain how sorry I actually am. So, for the past month I have wrote blogs, but just didn't have the confidence to post them, what I mean by that is because I haven't written for so long, I therefore didn't know how to introduce myself back into blogging again. I've had very, erm horrible things happen to me, I will say now this blog may be rather long!

So, my lovely nan, Jacquline aka nanny jack, has had cancer 3 times in her life, and she is 73 now, her most recent cancer was lung cancer, it was only a tiny bit, but it would soon spread rather large. She was diagnosed last year at the end of summer, and were I live our summer didn't end until September when I started secondary school. Great start, but everyone was confident she could get rid of it, she would simply have a operation to remove it. Easy. No, not really. Just before the operation my nanny got told she was too weak to have it, and if she was to proceed, she would die. The only other option was for her to have therapy and have it zapped, so that's what she did.

After all the therapy sessions had finished all we could do was wait, and wait, and wait, for result to get the all clear. If she was cancer free we were going to have a small family house party with strawberries and champagne, if it failed she would have no choice but to start kimo. Were she'll be sick, and not herself. My nan is my inspiration. She is confident. And strong. Nothing is going to get in her way! And that's way I love her so much. The day come were the result had arrived. Me and my sister was at school and all my Nan and grandads children (my auntie and uncles) went with them to find out the news, their is 5 children all together. As soon as my bus had arrived I ran home, I didn't leave the phones side. The phone rang. My nan was cancer free!

Brilliant! We can all get on with our happy lives and be proud of my nan. But recently, we noticed my  Nan's been acting rather diffrent, now we got the results in February, so it couldn't be side effects of the therapy. My mum took her to the doctors, and they said she needed to go to the hospital. My auntie Tracy come to check on nan, and called for a ambulance. In the ambulance nan didn't remeber anything. My auntie Trudy even told us she didn't even rember her own name, it brought a tear to my eye. But it's one more reason to make me achieve my dreams, my nan is gradually recovering from a stroke on one side of her brain, but I want to be a singer for her.

Moving on, my best friend Nicole, also made me cry, because she is so like me it's unbelievable. We like the Same music, and look alike, and have some similarity in our personality. But, I was having a down day because my nan had been told she had a stroke to one side of her brain, Nicole just sat there looking at me and said ' your upset aren't you, well someone as popular as you shouldn't be upset, even though you always say it's ok to cry. You know, your my hero, without you I'd just be a little weirdo sitting alone listening to sam smith. But your so weird, that's why I love you.' I burst out laughing and crying. She is like a sister to me, I no it sounds so cheesy and cringey, but I don't actually know what I would do without her. I struggled in primary because I was the only one who didn't like one direction, or the wanted. I'd much prefer to listen to Whitney Houston and David Bowie, but that's why enjoy where I am in life right now. I know who I am, and what I want to do with my life, and I think I've done it at perfect timing, because the amount of oppitunitys I've accepted are incredible, maybe one day I will achieve my dream...
That's it for this week, I do plan to post more often, but goodbye for now, BAI!




This weeks song is... Lay Me Down by Sam Smith, I'm obsessed with sam smith, he is such a soulful singer I just love his music.


This weeks extra bonus song is... Stay With Me by Sam Smith, like I said I'm obsessed!

WHAT DO YOU THINK?

Hillo,
So, I've been thinking because I haven't been keeping to my due dates on blogs, maybe I should change it?

So,maybe I could do it every other week, or I could do on random days or whatever you suggest; because not every week I have something interesting! Like this week not a lot happen, some stuff did happen but I don't want to share that.

I'd like to say congrats to David Bowie to his award at the Brits and to Bastille, Disclosure, And loads  others, well done! I'm a big David Bowie fan in case you didn't know, I also love Sam Smith, Bastille and Disclosure pretty much everyone that actually went to the Brits. Even James Cordon AKA Smithy.

This weeks blog is going to be short but suggest which one you prefer and I'll see you next blog, BAI!

This weeks song is... Say Something by A Great Big World and Christina Aguilera, this so means a lot to me, personally. But, it's not everyone's cup of tea so, I going to suggest and bonus song.

This weeks special bonus song is... Addicted To You by Avicii, it builds so much plus I just like Aviciis music!

IVE HAD A LOT ON MY MIND!

Hillo,
I know I haven't been sticking to my due date for blogs, but I've had a lot on my mind. So, let me explain myself!

Monday-
On Monday it was my friend Jessica's (who passed away) birthday and I forgot about it! Also, I forgot about my guitar lesson therefore, I missed it because he wouldn't let me have a later lesson (when he clearly had nothing better to do!). So, at this point I could of cried and it was only Monday!

Tuesday-
On Tuesday, my pen broke this led to me having to beg people to borrow their pen! I hate begging it makes me feel like poor person.

Wednesday-
My favourite day usually, (because I have music) but not today as we had a supply who has no taste in music; and she doesn't even like music! So, my week just kept getting better and better!

Thursday-
By Thursday what else could go wrong? Erm... Maybe that I get told I have a assessment on something we haven't even been learning! I had no ideas what to write about, so I just put down a load of rubbish!

Friday-
MY LAST DAY OF TORTURE! Well, so I thought! I had a P.E. Assessment which included me having to do gymnastics! I'm pants at anything physical, I'm better a musical things! It didn't go to bad but, I know I could of done it better. Also, my friend told me she was doing the Young Americans if you don't know who they are please search them they are amazing! Last year I was in it, singing a solo! Anyway, back to the story, and I was like I've got to do it! So, I thought I'd ask the teacher Monday.

Saturday-
The only day of the week were nothing bad actually happened!

Sunday-
The worst day of all. My family and I were going out, and I was wearing a skirt and a polka dot shirt. It was rather windy and went to grab my skirt baring in mind I have my iPod in my hand, I dropped my iPod on concrete and It shattered! All of screen it teeny,tiny, little cracks. I had tears in my eyes. The worst week EVER!

Monday Again-

So, i could really do with a yes from the teachers to say I can do the young americans after the week I just had! But, no I get told exactly what I wasn't hoping for no. And the lady wasn't polite either, she was like " No, we don't need you your just a silly year seven!". I wanted to scream, but it's ok because their is more oppitunitys in this world and I'm not the only one who struggles! That's all for this week,BAI!

This weeks song is... I've Told You Now by Sam Smith! I love everything about him, his voice, his looks, his music i could go on forever!

SOMETIMES WE HAVE TO CRY.

Hillo,
I know your thinking "hey you didn't post last week!". Well, I had my friend, Grace, come round and I haven't seen her in ages. So, I thought it was rude to write a post when we're trying to catch up. Am I forgiven? Anyway, your thinking by the title "whats happened?".

You know how I said my of my friends past away, well lately ive been a bit sad. On Wednesday lunch, in music room, I just had the biggest cry I've had in ages. My friend kayleigh ( we both grew up together knowing the girls) ran in the music room, as soon as she see me crying she immediately burst into tears with me. All I remember is whispering to her " Sometimes we have to cry, it's ok.". In the end, there was 20 of my friends crowded around up in a group hug. It just made me think how lucky I am, and that everyone has a story to share.

I also started singing lessons last week, I sing every Wednesday. Last week I sung Jar Of Hearts by Christina Perri, and this week I sang Make You Feel My Love by Adele, and in March I'm a Singing The Power Of  Love by Gabrielle Aplin. That's all for this week, BAI!




This weeks song is...Rather Be by Clean Bandit I LOVE this song so much it unbelievable; but then again i say that about every song!